My sweetest Shigle <3
I felt the need to write you a letter tonight. So that you don’t forget just how much you mean to me and how much I care about you. I try my hardest to be everything that you need and want not only in your girlfriend, but in your best friend. I want to be the person that you run to when you’re lost. I want to be the person you seek out when you’re lonely. I want to be the person you think of and want to see every day.
I just talked to Lili tonight and…i don’t know why it took talking to her for me to realize this, but…I see how truly perfect you and I are for each other. A lot of people write on my wall (and your wall too) and tell us that you and I are cute together. But tonight, she said that we’re THE perfect couple. She told me how ridiculously jealous she is of us and how she never sees us arguing or fighting with each other. A part of me can’t believe that we’ve lasted two months without fighting or being genuinely upset at each other. I know that I never want to fight with you ever. If any sort of argument ever breaks out between us, I wouldn’t hesitate to surrender. I’d rather have you than win any petty fight we ever have. You mean so much more to me than my ego, and that’s saying a lot considering the fact that I’m a proud and confident little girl. I think you and I are just so happy to have found each other and this beautiful relationship. The both of us can’t imagine being without the other and that banishes any anger or resentment that could distance us as a couple.
Lili and I talked about the kids you and I are going to have in the future…their names will naturally have to start with M, seeing as we’re Mikah and McKenzie. They’ll be super asian and gorgeous and athletic and intelligent.
But…i actually want people to be jealous of us…i know that sounds horrible, but it’s true. I want people to look at us and wish they had what we have together. Honestly, there’s a lot to be jealous of. We are forever. I’m never going to leave you for any reason. All those guys at the ice palace have nothing on you, babe. But at the same time, I’m not gonna share you. I’m going to protect you from everything and anything in the whole word. I need you by my side.
I know I’ve only ever said it once, and I’ve mentioned it at least once in my letters, but I love you. I love you so much and I hope you completely realize that. I hope you hold onto that and never let it go, and maybe one day reciprocate the feeling. Words can’t even begin to describe how I feel when I see you, when our fingers intertwine, or when you hold me close. It’s like…I feel complete. There’s no me without you. That’s why I know it’s the truth when I say:
I love you.
thank you for today, shigle.
I’m sorry i was sad and upset at you for a lot of today. I had an amazing 11/11/11 with you and i wouldn’t have wanted to share it with anyone else. I’m glad we got to spend it together because i know there are a lot of couples out there who didn’t even get that chance. I miss you like crazy right now and can’t wait for the next time you come over to my house and we can cuddle and be adorable and have fun with each other. and maybe we can ACTUALLY watch Fast Five and have a photoshoot. I hope you enjoyed the day as much as I did and I’m really sorry you didn’t get to eat your walnut shrimp, but I’m glad you like your wristband. Have fun with your MW3. And on a sidenote, I’m so proud of you for making the team for basketball. I know you’re bummed, but you’re gonna get crazy playing time and I’m gonna be at every game cheering you on, ok? You have two more years, and I know you’ll make D1 Vars, baby. I hope my wish comes true, sweetie. Thank you so much for today! <3
Babe, I just want to thank you for today and letting me spend one of the most anticipated days of the year with the one person who can always keep me happy. I had a lot of fun today and I don’t know what I would’ve done without you. I’m really sorry your wish didn’t come true, but I know that you’re next one will come true :) Just believe babe. I’m sorry I made you mad at the mall today, I’m a shitty boyfriend :( But thank you for forgiving me :) You’re amazing. I promise you, you are perfect. As perfect as a person can be. In my eyes at least. There is no other person who I’d rather spend half my day with because pretty much everyone besides you would irritate the shit outta me. But you don’t because you know how to keep a smile on my face and keep me happy. Thank you muchos for my wristband :) It’s really nice. You really are the perfect girlfriend any guy could ask for. If I was with any other person today, I woulda been super pissed seeing that panda was closed because I was really looking forward to eating my shrimp. But being with you made me happy and I didn’t get as mad because I was with the most amazing girl in the world. I miss you sooo much and I’m really sad that we can’t see each other after school on mondays. But we will get through this together and reach winter break where we will cruise a lot and spend a lot of time together. I promise. It’s you and me baby. For the rest of forever. <3
oh well, we’re gonna last longer than them anyway"
— (via mckenxiee)
Guys, show her by your actions that you’re the one for her. Be that guy who makes her fall in love. Be that guy who lets her know that all guys aren’t the same. Make her smile, do things with her, tell her you love her. Play with her, massage her, let her know she’s special. Let her get it, let her finally put the pieces to the puzzle together. Make her finally get love. Show her, tell her that when you look into her eyes she’s the greatest girl you’ve ever seen. Cherish her and she shall do the same. Love her and she’ll love you more. Treat her right and she’ll treat you better. It’s a girls nature to often care more and love, make it the opposite. You should care more and love more, so she can do nothing but smile, so she can love you even more. <3
(via mckenxiee)
How did I get ever so lucky, to be able to call a girl like her, mines. I don’t know what I did to deserve her, or why she fell for me in the first place, but all that matters is that I have her now and I never plan on letting go. I am completely unsure of my feelings, but what I do know, is that she is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. To see her sad, to see her upset, even to have that feeling that she’s not happy kills me inside. Whenever she feels this way, I feel like i failed at my duty to keep her happy, and keep her smiling. I’ve told her before, that my greatest fear, is failing. But right now, she changed that. I still feel failure, but it’s a different kind of failure. What I fear, is failing to hold on to her, and continue to be good enough for her. I feel like I am no where near good enough for her, but somehow, she stays by my side. She told me she loved me today. A day before our one month anniversary. Honestly, I was lost for words. I didn’t know how to react or how to respond, so I just kind of stood there, mouth open, trying to make sense of all that was happening. The only thing I remember from that moment, was that immense feeling of happiness, like I succeeded, so far, in pleasing her and keeping her content with me. Words could not explain the way I felt at that very moment. She is my entire world, and I promise to do anything to keep her happy. I honestly do not know what I would do without her in my life. I’d probably still be the lonely outcast trying to find a place to belong. She completes me, I know that much. I know I have strong feelings for her, but, I’m not sure to what extent? When I know, truly that I love her, and I think that I will start to feel true love eventually, I know that it will hit me. All I want, is for me to find this feeling for her and no one else. I don’t think it will be possible for me to feel so strongly about anyone else but her. I can’t imagine myself, with any one else, or continuing my life without her there. I’m sorry I cannot tell you I love you right now McKenzie, but I promise, that we will be together forever. Whether forever is tomorrow, a week, a lifetime, or beyond, I promise I will be there right next to you through it all, and I won’t leave you. You’re all mines, and I am all yours, for eternity and beyond <3
(Source: mik-enzie)
I do love you. i really do, with all my heart. I’m not gonna say it again though. But at least you know now.
For a while, I pondered the thought that maybe I felt that way about you. This afternoon made me truly realize it.
There’s not a single thing that I don’t love about you. You are my ideal guy. Perfect for me. I feel like I’ve known you for lifetimes and that you’d do almost anything you could possibly do to keep me happy, just as I would do for you. I’m jealous of all the girls you talk about. I do things for you even if I’m uncomfortable or unhappy. I’m a chronic liar by nature – but I’ve never lied to you, even if I was afraid to tell you something. I love how we laugh and play together and try to be with each other every free second we have. You think I’m gorgeous and still want me even though there are girls who are infinitely more beautiful than me all around us. You gained the courage to tell your dad about us even though you weren’t supposed to have a girlfriend. I saw how much I need you in my life. I know you said you’d never leave me…but thinking about that made me see that neither of us is promised a tomorrow and I had to let you know how I feel. Life is too short. I want to be with you for the rest of forever. But forever might end tomorrow or the day after or next month.
And now I think…like how I sacrificed a part of myself and opened myself up for rejection and disappointment when I told you that I like you a month ago, I gave up a huge chunk of my heart to you this afternoon. I didn’t want things to be romantic or set up or cliché. I wanted it to be real and true and straight from the heart. It was simple and concise and rather crude today, and I apologize for that. I didn’t even get to explain myself. I didn’t want to pass up my opportunity to tell you that every fiber of me belongs to you. I trust you enough that you won’t throw it to the wind.
But now…I feel so vulnerable and empty and hollow, honestly I kind of regret telling you. I feel like I fucked us up and things won’t be the same anymore. I just want a re-do of today. We’re worlds apart right now. I know I said I don’t need to hear it back until you are ready, and I truly mean that. I don’t want to hear it at all if you don’t mean it. Seriously I don’t know if I’ll even believe it when you do tell me. I’ll probably assume that you were influenced by me saying it first…just like how I thought you only said you liked me cause I told you I liked you first.
I don’t even know, ok? I’m messed up right now. I’m thinking too much and I’m scared and sad. But I couldn’t stop loving you even if I tried. I have no idea what to do or how to go on.
